feel i have about twenty letters i wrotefeel by ~alliegoestohollywood
but didn't send,
and five diaries i received but never opened
hidden all across my bedroom.
i feel very unconfortable explainign how i feel.
mostly because i cannot find the words to do it.
all i know is that it hurts. inside. a lot.
i will regret this in the morning, but it will not be read.
a sight to see watch me smile.a sight to see by ~alliegoestohollywood
can you feel it?
i keep saying that i'm fine, i'll be okay.
meanwhile, my insides are aching.
can you feel it?
everything i try, everyday i try,
it always comes back to bite me.
and it tears me apart.
can you feel it?
i keep trying to see the day i'll break down.
i
t's bound to be a sight to see.
can you feel it?
normalcy i can'tnormalcy by ~alliegoestohollywood
stand in line with everyone, when i
know i belong somewhere else.
i can't
make myself something i'm not, just to
fit in with everybody else.
but
i won't
stop pretending i'm okay, because
no one wants to hear how i fell
or know what i really am, or
stand somewhere else with me,
because i know...
i am not anyone else, and they will never know me,
so i will just put on a smile and pretende i'm okay.
(at least until i have enough of pretend normalcy)
!
Sta.sh
